It's been forever since I've been here, but I think it's time to come back. I've learned a heck of a lot in the last 6 months. I've learned how to lift heavy weights. I've learned to like (or at least not hate) running. I've learned how to eat for the optimal health of my body. I've returned to my ideal body weight. I've added muscle. I've accomplished almost all of my major goals.
But I'm not happy. I still don't like how I look. I miss being skinny. I want to lift heavier. My current goals are:
Deadlift and squat bodyweight
Get my 5K under 30 minutes
Bring down bodyfat %
Learn to live without sweets
Which is hard to accomplish with nothing but dumbbells, a kitchen full of junk food, no kid-free time to run and zero willpower. It was so much easier when I just didn't eat. Although that made me pretty grumpy, too.
So - I come here to vent, but also to plan. This week's goals are:
1) Start the bodyweight section of Strong Curves
I think the training in there will help a lot with some of the posture and pain problems I've been having
2) Run in the evenings
As often as I can get the chance. Even a mile or two on the runway will help.
3) Limit treats to 2-3 squares of dark chocolate/day
No baking. No buying junk. No eating the whole bar.
4) Weed out my closet
If it makes me feel fat or awkward, it at least needs to go in a box to forget about for a while.
5) Stick to my macros
NOT exceed my 1450 calories. Try to hit my protein.
6) NOT OBSESS
Getting in shape is great. But not if it takes over my life. My family is important, my faith is important, keeping my life running smoothly is important - looking better in a bikini or getting "strong for zombies" is a hobby. And that's that.
We'll check back next week to see how it goes. Feel free to check up on me to see how I'm doing, cheer me on, tell me stories, send me recipes - whatever. :)
Oh, and current stats: