I also mentioned that media is my nemesis when it comes to self image. Hubby and I have been watching Star Trek: Enterprise lately and, of course, it's full of impossibly thin and gorgeous women. And, of course, I found myself desiring very much to look just like Subcommander T'Pol:
Note the jutting hipbones and itty bitty ribcage. Even if I ate nothing, ever, I could never look like that. Then we saw an episode which required said officer to remove her shirt and hubby exclaimed "ew, you can see all her bones!" As in, he doesn't find waiflike attractive. And I thought to myself - then what on earth am I setting myself up for?
And thinking back to my earliest posts and my earliest goals I realized how wrong I've gotten it lately. I've been trying to hit a certain weight, squeeze into ancient clothes, look like super-skinny celebrities. But not that long ago my primary goal was "get healthy, get fit" - what happened? It dawned on me yesterday that I'm already a couple pounds under my pre-pregnancy #3 weight. So what if I'm not college weight again - I shouldn't be that thin anymore - and a mommy of 3 really shouldn't have anything skin-tight, cropped or supershort in her wardrobe anyway. So, I'm getting back to my original goals - more working out, healthier eating, better sleep - and whatever shape I wind up, that's what shape I'm meant to be. Besides, all the other Star Trek chicks are sporting this look - and I could totally pull that off right now :)
I hear and understand your plight. I too was trying to be like the women of the movie/TV/Modeling world. Its so depressing when we are forced to see these women everywhere. The worst is the commercials for VS. Thankfully it seems TV with their family shows, is making a new trend of casting realistic "healthy" women. I am liking this new trend! I hope it continues. Most of all though, we have to stop comparing ourselves to other women. I finally get that now, but it has taken me many years to actually stop. You look great to me! Stay healthy!! :)
ReplyDeleteBeing the wife of a photographer, I feel so much pressure to be thin. I see his other models and compare myself! What I'm forgetting is, they are much younger than me, plus have never given birth! I was 80 pounds and I can tell you what that does to your hubby's libido...not good. I am now a confident woman, I know what a man likes. They love healthy, strong confident women. Also hubby recently introduced me to Photoshop (& more extreme programs). Wow...I never realized how much you can digitally erase aging, weight, and elongate body parts. Nothing is real anymore!
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